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February 24, 2014 12:38 pm

Life in 2014

Well I was reading all my other little notes on my page from at least 4 years ago. I was happy then. I had the perfect boyfriend, perfect job.. And since then everything has just gone downhill… It’s sad to think that I am no longer as happy as I was then. & no way will I be as happy as I was then because too much has changed..

Since then, I’ve become single. I finished Sixth form with Two A*s & one A. I’ve then proceeded to go to the University of Chichester. Where I’ve met the most amazing people. Who I can hopefully keep in my life forever, I spend a lot of my time in rehearsals.. some even up to 7 hours a day for one orchestra. Which is something I love doing. I may not be close to being the best But I bloody enjoy what I’m doing and it makes me happy for the time that I am involved. I’ve played Mahler 1, Shostakovichs 5th symphony, Dvorak New World Symphony and that’s all since I’ve started in 2012. I spend at least everyday rehearsing and playing music. If that’s not a perfect way of living then I don’t know what is. I am sad that I haven’t written all of it down. Because some of the experiences are the best I will probably ever had. & I will want to remember them… 

When I started University, I lost my Uncle. 2 weeks before I was supposed to start the biggest journey of my life. & before it was even starting it was nearly stopped. I remember the day I was told. & I remember the events of that day. I will never get over what happened. & I will never forget them either. Uncle, I miss you. & so does everyone else. I hope heaven is looking after you.

Then University started. I became the 3rd Boult to go to University. As obviously I’ve always seen it as the right thing to do. As I knew I would thrive there and work to my full potential. It’s funny how looking back I didn’t know how successful and how much I would be a part of everything as I am now… I went to my lectures. I went out when I was asked. But I didn’t enjoy it. I went to rehearsals. I came out thinking I was rubbish. But then something changed, I started to believe in myself. And practice some more. And then BAM… You are only as good as you make yourself. With wise words from my cello teacher I made it through first year and came out with a 2:1. Shame it doesn’t count to the rest of my degree haha! :)

Then I finished first year. And came home to work over summer. To which I lost my grandad. July 2013. Was the hardest day, I miss you and I love you. I am glad you got to see me perform on my cello that weekend you came down. Thank you. Thank you for believing in me and funding my lessons. Thank you for being the best grandad. Thank you for everything. I also hope you’re happier now you’re with Simon & Joanna. I hope that you are more comfortable and just happy. 

Working over summer full time. Was so much fun. I got use to it soo quickly. :) Until some events made me regret it !! -.-  but then second year had started. I auditioned for more orchestras and got in! I was starting my year as the Music Society President. And I was also a welcome rep. Through this I met amazing people. Freshers week was sooo fun! :D I really enjoyed myself. Much better than last year. Also because I got queue jump! Definitely loved it. University is so worth the money. It depends how deep you throw yourself in. I’m now on the Societies Federation Committee. And am running for Societies Federation President. I’ve come so far and I’m not willing to give up. I just hope the next few weeks go smoothly. 

11:22 am
suicide-scars:

i love this movie 

suicide-scars:

i love this movie 

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11:19 am
I just love these two <3

I just love these two <3

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Ha just found this on my iPod. Hilare. @OwenJH_

Ha just found this on my iPod. Hilare. @OwenJH_

May 18, 2013 1:20 am May 17, 2013 2:05 pm
First year done boiiiiiii!!

First year done boiiiiiii!!

May 11, 2013 10:50 pm
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